Seek and Serve

I recently had a brush with my own mortality. I wasn’t aware of it, but I was told the surgery was just in time. Since then, I have been flooded with prayers and well wishes from literally hundreds of friends and acquaintances. It’s been overwhelming. And I’m grateful.

You Can Do It!

I did it! My fancy automatic espresso machine was jacked; it seemed to have a problem, and I couldn’t figure out if it was mechanical or electrical. Turns out, it was neither. It was coffee; stuck coffee. Yup, the thing they don’t tell you (up front) when you get one of these complicated systems is the kind of regular and periodic maintenance you need to perform. But I fixed it! What motivated me was not wanting to ship the machine back to Seattle where it was purchased. Besides, I had just thrown out the box (after almost 6 months)! So I educated myself. I did online searches to find articles and videos to solve my problem. Then I performed the surgery. And did I mention I fixed it?!! Some things are not worth our time (if you can afford an alternative). And some things are above our skill level (like fixing my garage’s concrete foundation). Other things are just a matter of researching and believing in ourselves. You have incredible value because you’re made in God’s image. That’s not an issue. True self-esteem comes with doing a job well done. It grows when we stretch ourselves and accomplish things we didn’t know were in us. It comes from fixing your fancy coffee machine, forgiving, or rising to some other challenge. We are our own worst enemies because we doubt ourselves. We have to rewire our brains to believe what others (especially God) see in us. Now go do that thing you need to do. You can do it!   Royalty-free image by Borb Krisztin; retrieved...

Never Enough

We’re never satisfied. Enough is never enough. Life seems to be a constant chase for filling what can never be filled. For some it’s food. For others it’s shopping, sex, drinking, being with people, working, or collecting. We never quite reach what we’re striving for. Seriously, how many pink shirts do you need in your closet? The Germans have a great word for this while English does not. Sehnsucht, is what we might describe as “addictive yearning.” Read on; this article isn’t what you think. The renowned 17th-century philosopher, inventor physicist and mathematician, Blaise Pascal is said to have written: “There is a God shaped vacuum in the heart of every man that cannot be filled by any created thing, but only by God.” However, it seems that what he actually wrote in his Pensées (Thoughts) was more like the following: “What else does this craving, and this helplessness, proclaim but that there was once in man a true happiness, of which all that now remains is the empty print and trace? This he tries in vain to fill with everything around him, seeking in things that are not there the help he cannot find in those that are, though none can help, since this infinite abyss can be filled only with an infinite and immutable object; in other words by God himself” This unfulfilled longing can lead us to unhealthy thoughts and behaviors. Franciscan Priest, Richard Rohr calls them addictions: “Addiction uses up our spiritual desire—the drive God put in us for total satisfaction, for home, for heaven, for divine union.” Many religious people view the “questing” part of our personalities as something God installed to drive us to him. HOWEVER, not everyone sees this unmet, addictive yearning as of God. Northern Irish philosopher...